Please Shrink Me

I am a woman, a mom, a wife, a professional, a daughter, a sister (x2) a friend, a colleague and I am fat! I am tired of being fat. I sometimes tell myself that I am not fat, just pleasantly plump.....Rubenesque. But that is simply not true and it is time to acknowledge that I am obese. It happened so slowly that I am not ever sure how it happened. I was a fine size 10 when I started grad school in 1997. Then grad school got very very hard and depressing and I ate and ate and ate.

At my wedding in 2004 I was a size 14-16, but happy! During the miscarriage years 2004 and 2005 I would lose 10 pounds after each miscarriage due to loss of interest in food and manic exercise. Then I would feel sorry for myself and gain 15 pounds back until I got pregnant again. That cycle went around three times and I ended it at a size 18 (where I still am today).

When I got pregnant with my now daughter in 2006 I basically stopped moving. I was so afraid of losing the pregnancy that I was a LUMP.

Thankfully I only gained 35 pounds with the pregnancy, but when you start at 200 that is 35 too many!

The past two years since having my daughter I have moved to a different state, started a new job, and nursed my husband's psyche through a year of unemployment. Needless to say, I did not take care of myself much.

So here I am. Ready to finally lose the weight. I think I can do this if I hold myself accountable. I want to get pregnant again and I never want to see the scale go over 200 lbs again.

My goal: lose 25 pounds
My plan: weight watchers and the 30 day shred program